Feburary 2012 is coming to an end

With a blink of an eye – February is ending already. Time is just flying by without us knowing. Sometimes I wish time will slow down a little bit – I don’t want our little Jayden to grow up too quick! I want him to be a baby for a longer period of time – so I can enjoy holding hi.m. I won’t be holding another newborn baby for awhile – so I want to treasure it while I can. Which is really not going to happen because I know babies grow every week and without us knowing – he’s going to know how to sit and walk. *sigh* That’s just part of life right? I’m just going to be sad when he doesn’t give me kisses, hugs, or even let me hold him anymore.

Anyways, it’s been an eventful February for us with Chinese New Year, Valentine’s Day, and attending Prenatal classes every Wednesday. Let’s hope March will slow down a little bit – so I can enjoy my sleep and work.

[TVB] Let it Be Love

I’ve been watching this show ever since it aired on January 31st – it’s not a bad show but in the beginning it gets quite confusing. It ended just a couple of days ago. If you know me – you would know I watch the latest TVB shows they air. So if Hong Kong airs it at night – I would watch it right away the next day. It’s like an addiction. Sometimes I don’t even want weekends to come because TVB dramas don’t air over the weekend. It’s been a long time habit of mine. Or shall I say a long time addiction? Do you watch TVB dramas too? What did you think about this drama that just ended? I can’t wait for another new drama!

Free Sample of Similac Formulas for Newborns

This package of Similac box arrived in the mail one day and I couldn’t recall ever signing up for free samples. Than I thought about it – that was back in September. I didn’t know I would actually get free sample sizes and coupons in the mail – but yes I did get two coupons. I won’t be using these formula soon because I do plan on breast feeding little Jayden for a good half a year. Breast feeding is the best gift you can give your kid (I was told). I’ll probably start with formula after half a year and see how he get use to it. Have anyone of you tried Similac for your babies? Any suggestions on any other brands?

Working from home

It’s been almost two years that I’ve been working from home – well I had a part time job along the way but never given up on what I did online because I feel like it’s a great opportunity to make money while being at home. These opportunities don’t come too often and I just don’t want to lose it. It’s like extra side pocket money to pay off bills and groceries in the future. Some says – it’s a lot of work but for me – if you work ahead of your schedule and plan ahead – it’s really not too much work. I’m starting to have web conferencing service and private advertisers contacting me. It gives me that exciting feeling knowing that there’s more in store for me. My plan is just to work harder towards my goal – so hopefully one day I make enough to stay home full time with my kid and not worry about finances. It feels great to feel independent and not needing to ask the husband for money. Do you call that women pride?

Preparing One Month Celebration Favors

Gonna start preparing Jayden’s One Month Celebration favors – I don’t have to but I thought it would be neat to give out little chocolate bags. It won’t be Lindt Lindor chocolate this time. I’m thinking about getting a few boxes of Ferroro Rocher to put in purple gift bags. Gonna do it soon because I still have a whole list of things to do. I still haven’t packed my hospital bag yet! Along with that – wash all his clothes, blankets, bed sheets and etc. Yes – a lot to do at home. Everything must be done by the end of the month.

Home Organizing

Finally all organized and packed in boxes. My scrapbook goodies, wrapping goodies, and other little things. No more clutter messes on my table! It feels good to be organized and know where things is – instead of digging through things. I’ve been wanting to organize my stuff but never got the chance to. Since I don’t have much time left till the little one arrives – I had to clean this mess up. Everything must be organized before he arrives because I know he won’t give me anytime to do things like this. He’s going to want my full attention 24/7! Poor me – I’m going to miss a lot of my freedom!

Looking for homes in Markham, Ontario

We’re not planning to buy a home anytime soon because that’s just not our plans right now but that doesn’t stop us from checking out homes around our area. We’ve been checking out Open houses and Independent living communities around here. I would like to stay in Markham because of the convenience but the husband doesn’t mind living a little bit up North. I’m just not so keen about that idea – I mean – it’s a good idea because it’s affordable and we can have a bigger piece of land. But living up North is pretty inconvenient when you need to see families and friends. I hope within these years – the house market will go down – than we don’t need to move that far. I want my families and friends close by.

Pregnancy Joy

Don’t let the picture fool you – I haven’t given birth yet! It’s my best friend’s newborn baby! Feels so nice to hold a newborn baby – I haven’t held one for almost four years! FOUR years – that’s crazy long eh? I went to visit the newborn after 12 hours that she gave birth. Hearing her story – scares me a lot because of the painful process.

Anyways – I’ve been enjoying a lot more being pregnant now. In the beginning it was quite hard because of the extra weight and the uncomfortableness. Honestly – for the first couple months of being pregnant – I didn’t know how I would go through this. But now – I feel a lot better. I can sleep during the night and sleep very well. I’ve heard some pregnant women can’t sleep during nights because of discomfort but for me – I have no problem in that area. If I could be given 15 hours of sleep a day – I would actually do it. I enjoy and love my sleep way too much. Since I know my time is very limited now – I’ve been keeping myself very busy during the day and night. I feel very privileged  and grateful to be working at home and I can work ahead my schedule. Been working and planning a lot during these days because I know I won’t be able to when the baby arrives. There’s a lot of sitting in front of the computer – but that’s only going to be one more month left. I do get to pamper myself once a week with a massage at the salon though – so it really isn’t that bad. Pregnancy massage is actually very important because my arms and legs been really swollen. It is PAINFUL!

Labour in a month! I’m quite scared after watching all these videos at the prenatal classes. What was I thinking? My dream was to always be a mother – but I never really looked into the painful labour part. Now that he’s coming so quick – it scares me a lot. Hopefully it’ll be a fast and quick process. With my hubby being there – I know he’s going to be one of the greatest father.

Valentine’s day plans

Do you have any Valentine’s Day plans in mind with your special someone yet? I’ve thought about it ever since January and I was/am planning to make the husband dinner at home but I seriously don’t know how I would feel like that day. I can’t stand for too long these days because of the extra weight. Sometimes I’m more tired and lazy. I know making dinner at home is more thoughtful but I don’t think I can do it this year. We’ll probably go out for a romantic candle light dinner and just enjoy the day. I’ll make him something special next year. But if I feel like it – I’ll add baking a cake for this year. What’s your plans? Share with me!

A very very sad story…

I almost teared up after I read this story found on Facebook!

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Married or not you should read this…

“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed -dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don’t share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up