Memory Helper

Told you so – if you follow my blog, you would know what I’m talking about here. As being 22 this year and a memory as bad as a 80 year old – this is all I can do. Write everything down!!! That’s right even for blogging – I gotta write everything down or else I forget what I posted for the week. Everything must be written down on paper for me to go back and re-read them when I forget things. I need tremendous help with this memory illness. I think I need to see a family doctor soon and see how she can deal with this – I shouldn’t even be that bad at memorizing things at this age. Are you like this too? Share your experience with me! Would love to hear it!!! Comment below!

Meaning of Marriage/Wedding

What’s the meaning of marriage to all of you? It’s the commitment and love the bride and the groom share. What ‘s the meaning of wedding? It’s to let the people around you to know, we’re officially together.

Weddings can be simple as just going to church and exchanging our vows to glam-ing it up on a cruise-ship. I just want to explain my point here that everyone’s expectation is different. To tell everyone the truth, we’re not so “WOW” about our wedding. Some people are pretty much excited and all about there wedding because it’s once a life time. But to us, it’s different, we’ve already been living together for the past year. What difference does it make after the 12hour wedding ceremony? We’re still going to be in the same house, living our lives the same and everything else the same. You might think “what is this girl thinking?It’s once a life time thing, you must glam it up?” We would rather spend this kind of money elsewhere. On our dream 3-garage house or our dream car. Yes, there’s some people that borrows money from the bank just for a wedding and after this 12hr day, they’ll be in debt for a few years. I understand that’s what they value and expect. But for us, we’re in a total different world of vales and expectations. I simply don’t expect the real gold/diamond or pearl for a glamorous wedding. Too hard to be asking for a simple wedding? My boyfriend & I don’t need to be judge or even compared with other weddings. This wedding is just a simple party for our friends and family to get together to celebrate. I could expect a lot from him, but I chose to live the simple life. WHY? Because I never had a simple life to start off with. I ask for no more DRAMA in my life. Too hard to ask for? You can simply step out of my life.

Money doesn’t fall from the sky NOR does it grow on trees. We are getting no support from anyone because we decide not to. Even if we have hundreds of thousands of dollars, doesn’t mean we need to have it glamorous. Again, some people expect it to be simple, some people expect it to be over the top. We like it HOWEVER we want it.

Why am I making a big deal when other people are criticizing and judging and even comparing? There were just TOO much drama in my life before, I cannot handle no more of these drama or stress due to my health problems. & I know I don’t need to explain this to the world, but I chose to, to make myself feel better. Let’s just put it this way “we’re scared of drama and therefore we don’t want to deal with drama”.

Hard to understand me? That’s fine with me because at the end, your not the one that’s living the rest of my life with. I don’t speak doesn’t mean I have nothing to say.

IMG1: http://images.mirror.co.uk/upl/m3/may2008/7/9/2AA305C4-C9C6-EF0A-D3DEA4D485447ED1.jpg

IMG2: http://www.bushmanskloof.co.za/images/events/events_weddings.jpg

Dream Car – Mercedes SLK

What do you guys think? This is one of the cars my boyfriend & I agree on in the future. I’m not a huge fan of cars but this baby gets me going “WOW”. This car costs about $70k and you can only drive it in the fall/spring/summer. Boo. You may ask, is this even worth it? I tell you, every person has there own values and expectations. If WE think it’s worth the money, than it’s worth it. We value and expect more than others in our living lifestyle. Is there anything wrong with it? I find it absolutely nothing wrong, but to some others. It might be a huge problem. But again, everyone is different in there own ways. Everyone has there own personality, there own thoughts, there own expectations. Can others control them? Give me your thoughts by commenting!

IMG: http://www.mercedes-benz.ca/content/canada/mpc/mpc_canada_website/en/home_mpc/passengercars.flash.skipintro.html

Baby, your mine one day!

Insomnia Problems

I have weird sleeping habits and I think I know why. Lately, I’ve been stress about everything. Every single thing that goes around. Sometimes I wish I can be more selfish and not give a shit about anything. But that just aint me. My sleeping times has become a disaster. Even if I want to sleep early, I roll around my bed for hours not being able to sleep. & Sometimes I do fall asleep for whatever the reason is. Stressfulness has taken a toll on my life. Sometimes I feel like I cannot take this anymore. I feel the headache and heartache. My boyfriend tells me sometimes I need to be a little selfish and let others handle the problems. It’s hard.

I’ve lived all my life caring for others. Like for example: friends. But after being betrayed in my highschool years, I choose to stay away from some sort of people and not fully trusting most. I don’t mind having a few friends around me because having a bunch means a lot of gossips. Girls are full of gossips and bullshits. & I’m not a person that gets along with most girls. Guys are so much easier to get along with and that is why most of my friends are guys.

Anyways, I’m really stress. I feel like just taking a sleeping pill and sleep for the night. But thinking about the after effect, I just can’t take it. SIGHHHHH. Life is hard, but I dont go complaining to everyone. Typing here is a way to release some of my stress. I’d say ” life is already complicated enough and some people make it more complicated…” I dont get why theres so much drama caused. I really don’t get it. Why don’t people grow up and learn from their mistakes? WHYYYYY?